From: James Grabowski Subject: [EVA][FanFic] Soul - Rei III X-Sender: japa_sephirius@pop.japan.crosswinds.net __________________________________________________________________________ SOUL - Rei III Written By: James Grabowski Revision: 1.00 - Official Release Type: Free Verse Poetry Source: Neon Genesis Evangelion Date: Decemeber 28, 1998 (Since November, finished December 1, 1998) Time: 12:01:45 PM (EST) __________________________________________________________________________ LEGAL INFORMATION: All characters contained in this work are copyright GAINAX, Project EVA, Movic, and any other company and/or division associated with the creation and/or production of Neon Genesis Evangelion. A.D.Vision holds the copyrights to the translated version of Neon Genesis Evangelion. At this time, they are used WITHOUT the permission of the aforementioned institutions. This work is a production of James Grabowski, and may not be used in any way, shape, or form without prior permission from the authors. Distribution is subject to prior approval by the author. __________________________________________________________________________ AUTHOR'S NOTES: Free verse is a form of poetry where there is no set pattern of writing (i.e: varied rhyming scheme, or no rhyming scheme at all ; changing number of syllables on each line ; _anything_ is allowed). This is the first piece of poetry I wrote that was inspired and based on Eva. This is also the only one as of this date that wasn't the persona of Rei III. It is a soliloquy, spoken from her perspective. The overall title for this series is "Soul". It is called a series as I plan to write more parts to it. Soliloquy's for Rei I, Rei II, Shinji, Asuka, Kaowru, etc. is the main idea, to delve into the thoughts and feelings of each persona, of each soul. Perhaps I take things too seriously at times... but perhaps, this style of writing may also be a more accurate reflection of my nature. Nonetheless, I take on the characteristics of each soul, and create what is the truth. __________________________________________________________________________ __________________________________________________________________________ SOUL - Rei III Red. Colour of fire. Colour of passion. Symbol of love. Symbol of nurturing. Existence. Red. Colour of blood. Colour of despair. Symbol of pain. Symbol of destruction. Non-Existence. Red. Colour of appearance. Colour of transparency. Symbol of existence. Symbol of non-existence. The colour I hate. Me. A wish for my own life, A wish to die, A wish to be one with him. Desires I understand, Desires which I seek. Denied. A wish to die for him, To substitute my existence So that he may have his. An action which I wouldn't have understood If I hadn't had this experience. Granted. All which I knew, Unknown. All which I was, Destroyed. All which I will be, Uncertain. Pain of my body. Yes. Pain of my mind. Yes. Pain of my thoughts. Yes. Pain of my... emotions? Yes. Pain... of my... heart...? Yes Pain of my soul. Yes. My soul is mine, Mine which I held. I would have given this body To escape my hell. I would have destroyed this soul Which shouldn't exist. All things which were forbidden, Things I would never have control of. Until now, I didn't. My bond to eternal life, Which I hated so greatly, Is gone. To the one who hates me, though I don't understand, Thank you, for giving me this choice. The words of gratitude which remain as a thought. I am able to control myself, I now understand something new. The day of my death, my greatest wish, Has dissipated like the eternal bond. Why have I chosen to exist? My soul is filled with pain. I'm only now understanding my life. This life is composed of many others, Though the choices are mine. I have to make them. I said I didn't know the facts. The third of a line, The end of a line. All make who I was, All make who I am, All make who I will be. Now there is fear, Fear of who I am, Fear of what I am. But I know the emotion I had felt, I know what developed. My soul is empty. Empty, but waiting to be filled. Complemented. I can not exist alone, The reason for my wish being granted. So once more I enter the world, To find the one I sought, I seek. The red is who I am, The blue contrasting, yet becoming. The puppet's strings are broken, Her master having failed his dream. I was fading, yet seen strongly. Never was that my desire... But my desires have changed. Pain for what I'm seen as. They were not me. They were they, I am I, My soul is mine. ... And wll exist among another. This is the part of my soul, That wishes to unite with you, Ikari-kun. __________________________________________________________________________ CREDITS ------- Design / Planning / Writing / Revising / Editing ------------------------------------------------ James Grabowski - Sephirius Endymion, Rei Ikari - sephirius@japan.crosswinds.net __________________________________________________________________________ Endymion's Portal - http://www.crosswinds.net/japan/~sephirius __________________________________________________________________________ "Man is descended from one alone. One way or another, we're all related. With this knowledge, the wall blocking the "truth" is destroyed, Leaving an opportunity that can be used to a positive advantage. One that can change man's perception forever, And consequently, prove the theorem wrong..." "And now it becomes a reality." __________________________________________________________________________ Copyright 1998 - James Grabowski __________________________________________________________________________ James Grabowski - sephirius@japan.crosswinds.net - http://www.crosswinds.net/japan/~sephirius "Man is descended from one alone. One way or another, we're all related. With this knowledge, the wall blocking the "truth" is destroyed, Leaving an opportunity that can be used to a positive advantage. One that can change man's perception forever, And consequently, prove the theorem wrong..." "And now it becomes a reality..."