From: James Grabowski Subject: [EVA][FanFic] Provocation X-Sender: japa_sephirius@pop.japan.crosswinds.net __________________________________________________________________________ PROVOCATION Written By: James Grabowski Revision: Type 2 / Revision 1.00 - Official Release Type: Fan Fiction - Soliloquy Source: Neon Genesis Evangelion Date: Decemeber 28, 1998 (Type 1 - November 10, 1998) Time: 4:21:45 PM (EST) __________________________________________________________________________ LEGAL INFORMATION: All characters contained in this work are copyright GAINAX, Project EVA, Movic, and any other company and/or division associated with the creation and/or production of Neon Genesis Evangelion. A.D.Vision holds the copyrights to the translated version of Neon Genesis Evangelion. At this time, they are used WITHOUT the permission of the aforementioned institutions. This work is a production of James Grabowski, and may not be used in any way, shape, or form without prior permission from the authors. Distribution is subject to prior approval by the author. __________________________________________________________________________ AUTHOR'S NOTES: This piece served as a narrative writing assignment for my English Class. Unfortunately, it isn't that wonderful... I couldn't put in the development I wanted to due to a restriction placed on me for length (I had already gone twice over the allowed limit ). Nonetheless, I'm publishing it as it was inteded to be. I might be adapting part of this of Zhou Tai An. Of course, that's a secret. At any rate, the main purpose of this is to explore Asuka's feelings towards things around her. And any excessive comments about me being cruel to Asuka will be quickly sent into the Trash folder in my Eudora program, so I don't want to hear it. Other than that, feel free to email me with any comments you may have. As mentioned, this had to be cut short, so it's not as wlel-developed as my usual works are. And just to make an announcement... THIS IS MY FIRST SHORT PIECE OF NEON GENESIS EVANGELION FANFICTION EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER !!! Okay, c'est tout pour la moment. (That's all for the moment.) __________________________________________________________________________ __________________________________________________________________________ Provocation God damn it! God damn it! Gott wei=E1! Just how the hell do I put up with those two anyway?! For the love of... how long have I known them now? A year? About that I guess. It's just that they're so... so pathetic! I swear, I have no idea why they're needed; I can do it all Rei Ayanami. Boy does she piss me off!!! Of course, she was here before me, but I don't give a damn about that, not I, the great Asuka Langley Sohryuu. Oooo... my hair feels like it's on fire. The red colour red makes it seem realistic, like it is. Since the day we met that girl's been so weird... it's scary. She always dresses the same way, except when we're piloting the Eva, then she'll where her tight white plug suit... other than that I've never seen her wear anything but that dress and blouse. Just how many of those does she have? She doesn't talk very much... hell, she barely ever says anything! Always acing her tests, always eating lunch by herself in promiscuous solitude... but she doesn't do anything!!! She just walks into class, stares out the window, eats her lunch, stares some more, then walks right out. What kind of life is that? How can she not socialize with anybody! Not like me. I'm the most popular girl in school, and everyone knows it. Hell, they all say it to me often enough. I get to talk to everybody. Who does she talk to? Nobody! Well, maybe that's not completely true. She speaks to Shinji Ikari. What am I saying? It's that spineless wimp that speaks to her. She doesn't have the nerve or even the desire to do something so... lifelike. So someone else has to take the initiative for her. So maybe she's beautiful... the petite but distinctly feminine figure, the soft, smooth, creamy skin, the deep bright eyes... What the hell am I saying? I'm better looking then her!!! Eyes of fire, hair of fire, body of fire, _personality_ of fire! Not like the queen of ice sitting by the window. People flock around me with each graceful move of my body, every word that leaves my mouth, every action that I perform! I could burn her so easily... I should burn her, and watch her suffer... Watch the ice queen melt in my flames... Oh, she's so balanced! She's so perfect! She's so beautiful! That's enough to make someone chronically throw up... I know what that `thing' is. She's a doll. Always doing what everyone asks or tells her to do, doing what anyone or everyone desires. She doesn't even think for herself! She's completely taken for granted, blatantly ignored, and she doesn't even care! The only person who gives a damn about her is Shinji! Shinji. That idiot that I have to live with. Mister `I'll-Do-It-Because-You-Want-Me-To'. He's another one! At least he's aware of the things he's doing, but that doesn't make a bloody difference! That guy does anything just so people will like him, be proud of him. That fool doesn't realize that none of that's necessary, but he's too blind to see! Not me! I do things for one person and one person only; me! I am the most important person there is! Who needs other people! I've been on my own since I was a young girl, and now I'm 14, just like them, and I'm more of an adult then anyone on this planet will ever be! Tears, pain, suffering... heh, who gives a damn about trivial things like that. I guess I have to give Shinji some credit. He handles himself... somehow. I can't blame him for not wanting to live with that bastard of a father of his. It's bad enough he has to work for him, why be forced to live with the son of a bitch too. His mother died a long time ago, just like mine... how isn't important. He was pushed around from family member to family member for a little while... and now he's with Misato and myself. Actually, he was with Misato for a few months before I came along... I guess she's nice, except that she likes beer a little too much. I've never seen a gorgeous 29 year old woman drink so much beer and still remain so sober... Back to Shinji. Why was I angry with him? Oh yeah, because he was himself, as usual. Too chicken to go out to the mall with me, that was it! Hikari's stupid idea... Not that I was surprised of course. It took him a few weeks to talk to anybody when he first arrived was the story I heard. Who does he get along with? Those two perverted idiots Kensuke and Touji (Touji bothers me... Hikari's attitude toward him is why...), Hikari sometimes (the only other girl who I think deserves the honour of being my friend), me (when I decide he deserves the grace of my presence), and... Rei, or he tries to. Does he see something in her? I never really thought about it. What, am I jealous that he'd rather be around her than me? He sleeps in the room right near mine, why would he when I'm there! I get to see him more often, I get to scare him more often, I get to tease him more often, I get to bug him more often, I get to make him... feel... Bad. ... Schei=E1. Great going Langley. Why do I hate Rei? I hate dolls... I'll always hate dolls... but is she that lifeless? Maybe not. And Shinji? I don't know anymore. I don't know what I'm doing, or what I've been doing. People follow me until they know what I'm like and who I am... then they run away from me. No wonder, knowing what I am. A gorgeous woman, a genius, but a hateful, spiteful, closed-minded little girl, filled with dark emotions that I keep trying to hide. I'm filled with pain and I give it to everyone else just so I'll feel good. Hikari's the only one who wants to be around me, but even she seems to be a little scared of me... and Shinji's even started trying to avoid me when he can. And Rei... she doesn't even give me the time of day, though that's to be expected. Am I proud of that? I don't know anything anymore. Or perhaps there are very few things that I know. At least, there's one thing that I'm sure of. I hate myself. But I won't cry or complain about it, I'm too strong for such pathetic emotions as those. That's who I am. ... A tear. Asuka, you are pathetic. __________________________________________________________________________ CREDITS ------- Design / Planning / Writing / Revising / Editing ------------------------------------------------ James Grabowski - Sephirius Endymion, Rei Ikari - sephirius@japan.crosswinds.net __________________________________________________________________________ Endymion's Portal - http://www.crosswinds.net/japan/~sephirius __________________________________________________________________________ "Man is descended from one alone. One way or another, we're all related. With this knowledge, the wall blocking the "truth" is destroyed, Leaving an opportunity that can be used to a positive advantage. One that can change man's perception forever, And consequently, prove the theorem wrong..." "And now it becomes a reality." __________________________________________________________________________ Copyright 1998 - James Grabowski __________________________________________________________________________ James Grabowski - sephirius@japan.crosswinds.net - http://www.crosswinds.net/japan/~sephirius "Man is descended from one alone. One way or another, we're all related. With this knowledge, the wall blocking the "truth" is destroyed, Leaving an opportunity that can be used to a positive advantage. One that can change man's perception forever, And consequently, prove the theorem wrong..." "And now it becomes a reality..."