From: ayanami@highlandgrey.com (Luna Ayanami) Newsgroups: rec.arts.anime.creative Subject: [Eva][FanFic] Chosen X-Moderation-Queue-Date: Tue, 26 May 1998 04:37:21 GMT Organization: NETCOM Canada X-Newsreader: Forte Free Agent 1.11/32.235 Followup-To: rec.arts.anime.fandom Approved: Brian Edmonds Here's a break from my usual "World" series. :) For those who can't figure it out, this is a Touji PoV, and it takes place during tape 9 (which, for those of you who have seen it) has made me cry every time I've seen it. So, enjoy it!! C&C and Lekka Shiens are to be sent to the usual addy, and all copyright notices apply. Oh, and this is the first of a quasi-series. Next, I will be writing a Shinji piece, which will probably be longer. *s* Enough of my blabbering; here's the story! --------------------------- Shin Seiki Evangelion Chosen What did I feel when I was told that I had been chosen to be the pilot of Evangelion Unit 03? What was I supposed to feel? I didn't know. I went back to class, trying to act like nothing was wrong, though everything was. "Sorry I'm late," I said, closing the door. "I know about it. Be seated," Sensei replied and continued with the lesson. Everyone stared as I took my seat. I didn't care about their stares. I only cared about Shinji's. Was this how he felt? I thought. Was this how he felt when he was told that he was to be the pilot of Unit 01? I went to get my lunch from the school store, only I went to the rooftop where Shinji, Kensuke and I often ate lunch. I wanted to think. I stared out over the school at nothing in paticular. Had I done the right thing? I had seen my sister after school yesterday. To remind myself of the damage the Evangelions could cause. Two sides conflicted within me. The first, the people that had been injured by the Evas. My sister. The second, the people that had been saved. Me. What about the pilots themselves? Were we saving ourselves and humanity, or invariably damaging it? Shinji. How did he live up to the expectations that they set for him? I'd seen him, a few days after some Angel attacks...when he actually came back to school. Asuka. She was cute, but too loud. She liked to brag, but I did have to wonder how she felt about Shinji. She challenged him...tried to bring him out... Rei. Quiet, reserved, but a good heart. She cares about Shinji, in a way that maybe only I can understand. Me. Could I handle the responsibility piloting an Evangelion required? Could I be as responsible for handling such an awesome weapon as the other three seemed to be? Would my sister want me to? A soft step behind me. "Suzuhara-kun?" I glanced over my shoulder. "Oh, Ayanami. If you're looking for Shinji, he's not here. I suppose you know. And Sohryu knows too, doesn't she?" Rei made an affirmative noise. I sighed. "So Shinji's the only one who doesn't know." I smiled a bit. "It's not like you to care about someone." "I'm not sure I understand," she said softly. "You care about Shinji." "I do? Maybe that's true." It was alright. I cared about Shinji too. I didn't go back to class. I sat outside, in the sun, remembering how I had treated Shinji when I had found out he was the pilot in the robot that had destroyed the building and injured my sister. I raised my open hand to block the sun and stared at my palm. "I'm sorry, newcomer," I had said. "But I have to hit you." And my fist had contacted with his face. I closed my hand into a fist now, setting my face in grim determination. I would make Shinji proud of me. I didn't go to school. They had collected me and flown me to the test site. Today was my first official day as a pilot. Today, I would wear a suit like Shinji's, and operate an Evangelion Unit. I wondered if this was how Shinji had felt as he had gotten into the plug for the first time. The mild claustraphobia, the nausea as the LCL rose and entered the lungs, the disorientation of the viewscreen that surrounded me to my periphial vision and beyond. Something went wrong. It felt different, the tingles in my head. They were interupted by a sharp stab. I cried out with the force of the pain and grabbed my head between my hands. The viewscreen flickered, and then it changed. It became liquidy, and fuzzy, hard to see out of. The head tipped forward, I could see my feet. It broke free and stomped off. And I couldn't do a thing. Unit 02 was the first to go. I didn't see how the Angel that possessed Unit 03 took it out, and maybe that was better. Afterwards, I could see the red Unit lying on the ground, bent over at a grotesque angle. Unit 00 was after that. Rei was holding a sniper rifle, as Asuka had been. Unit 03 bent over double and leaped backwards, so fast that the G-forces kept my head back in my seat. I didn't see what happened. Unit 00's arm was blasted off. Unit 03 continued the rampage. It encountered Unit 01 next. Shinji, like the others, had a rifle, but he hesitated. The two Units stood there for a moment, like the bad and good guys in old Western movies. "Run away, Shinji!" I shouted, knowing he couldn't hear me. "It'll kill you!" Unit 03 roared, and the arms lengthened across the intervening space between us. The hands wrapped around Unit 01's throat and tightened. It moved forward, forcing the other Unit into the hill behind it, and struggled to snap the neck. Unit 01 did nothing to save itself. After a time, Unit 01 did start to fight back. It was stronger. The purple hands came up and wrapped around the black throat, gripping it stronger and forcing it back. Unit 03's neck snapped and the connection between my mind and the Unit severed. I gasped and rubbed my temples, feeling dizzy. The Unit was slapped around a bit more. I felt nothing more, saw nothing more. Only the shaking of the physical body as Unit 01 beat it up. "Good for you, Shinji," I said to myself. I had been worried that he would let himself be killed. More shaking, then the plug itself moved. It was lifted out of the Unit, into the air, or at least that's what I guessed. Then the plug was bent almost double right behind me and the ceiling on it came down on me. Blackness. Luna Ayanami AKA the Nefarious Oni Ayanami Luna ayanami@highlandgrey.com ~or~ oni_ayanami@hotmail.com My realms (or hells, depends on your PoV) http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Temple/8016/index.htm http://members.tripod.com/~Oni_Ayanami/index.htm ICQ: Tenshi (4833622)